The past few days have been kind of rough. Brianna seems to be going through some sort of phase that turns everything- from nursing to diaper changes to naptime- some kind of small battle. She’s been cranky and crying alot. Could be teething, could be anything. But between lack of sleep and stress, I’ve been feeling some serious mommy burn out.
I never thought I’d say this, but I miss my MIL 🙂 She’s been out of town for a week and we have two more weeks to go. So no breaks during the day for me. And Josh is trying but he just doesn’t seem to know what to do. I think it’s especially hard since she continues to refuse bottle or sippy cup and has just restarted solids this past weekend. I can’t get much further than the grocery store and that’s only when she’s sleeping. I told Josh I need a vacation. Or a sick day (although I don’t really want to be sick, I just want to call in “sick”). I can’t believe at one point I thought I was going to be able to attend RT without Brianna. Ha!
Add in the house hunting, which continues to make me feel pressured to go back to work- something I do NOT want to do- because the prices are so freaking outrageous thanks to the Washington DC crowd- and then the bug problem we’re discovering this house has (first ants and now wasps and bees in the walls) and I was feeling kind of overwhelmed. I think it’s just utter exhaustion.
So I did something that I rarely ever do. I smoked a cigarette. I quit smoking two years ago and have smoked only about three times in the past year (after I had Brianna when I was out for a drink with friends) and I felt like I’d snap if I didn’t have a cigarette. Nothing like turning to those healthy habits to get through stress 😉
Today, I feel better. I didn’t really get any extra sleep, nothing has really changed, but I don’t feel as overwhelmed. Probably my positive nature re-asserting itself. Hopefully my cynical self will keep quiet! And we’re going to look at another house tonight that just came on the market. It’s in our price range and it looks cute. Think happy house vibes for us!